Everything is changing;

I'm not entirely sure if it's for the better or worse. I loved you for so long, I'm not sure what I'll do without you. But on the other hand you put me through more pain than anyone else I have ever met.
At first, you were everything I could wish for. You cared so much about me and you always put me first no matter what. You made me feel like I was important. In my world of chaos you used to be the only that made sense to me. You kept me sane.
Then you were the only thing that would cause me pain. I begged you to have mercy on me, to be who I needed you to be. When I needed you most, you left me hanging. You left me alone, left me to rot.
Now you want my forgiveness? You want me back? Even if I wanted you back, I don't think I could forgive you. I don't think I could love you again, not like I used to anyway. You don't make me happy now. The only feeling I get from talking to you is hopelessness. I can't even begin to explain how tired I am of this. You wore me down, you broke me. I am so done with this, so done with you. I should have been done months ago, but I thought I loved you. God, I was stupid. If only I knew then what I know now, you aren't my everything. You never should have been my anything. I know hate is a strong word, but I do. I hate you. I hope you rot in hell. Actually I lied, I could never care enough about you to hate you. But I hope all the pain you've cause me haunts you. I hope you dream of me at night, and wake up crying. I hope your pathetic life crumbles and breaks, just like mine did. I'm done with your bullshit. You know how much I used to cry over you? I hate myself for that. I'm not sure who I hate more, myself or you. Probably myself. I knew you were bad news, why did I let myself care? Why did I do that to myself? But I saved myself, I got rid of you. You are no longer a part of me. And you know, ever since I rid myself of you, I've been so happy. :b
I'm not going to let you, or anyone for that matter, win anymore. I am my own person, and I'm done letting people take advantage of my weaknesses.
I'm going to take all of my weaknesses and morph them into my greatest strengths. I'll be the happiest I've ever been. And for those of you who kicked me when I was down, I'm going to watch you burn. <3